Showing posts with label panic. Show all posts
Showing posts with label panic. Show all posts

Monday, September 05, 2011

Found while cleaning up my office at work.

Handwritten note in a small spiral notebook.

Panic attack on a plane.
9-15-04
  • parched mouth & throat; dry lips
  • inability to speak
  • like a large hand is wrapped around my torso--armpits to pelvis--slowly tightening its grip
  • sweaty palms
  • stiff all over; petrified
  • constant loop of panicky thoughts running in head
  • hot lava feeling in torso, back of neck, ears
  • gritting teeth alternating w/uncontrollable jaw shivering
  • shimmy shiverying of hips/thighs
  • feeling that I've forgotten to breathe & then breathing too fast; shallow
  • nausea; feeling like I'm going to puke
  • blurry vision; spotty vision
  • hyper-awareness of pulse; pounding/racing heart; pulse in neck
  • flushed feeling; hot cheeks
  • snowball feeling; like once it's started, there's no way to come down
  • lightheadedness
  • feeling off balance; vertigo; dizziness; feeling like I'm falling forward or sideways when I'm sitting still
  • sounds fade; become tinny
  • waves
  • out of control
When it's over, I feel utterly exhausted, drugged. Spent completely. Unable to focus or concentrate. Headachy. Very spacey.