Monday, September 28, 2009

The Whackness

Have you ever just not felt quite right? Like you're about 75% yourself, and the other 25% is sort of, out of whack? Well that's how I've been feeling for a while now, and tomorrow I'm finally going to go see my doctor about said-whackness. Basically, here's my list of issues:
  • WEIGHT GAIN! Been going to the gym regularly since February, and haven't shed a pound. In fact, I've GAINED 5 lbs., so WTF?!
  • INSOMNIA!! I'm not sleeping for shit. I tend to fall asleep, no problemo, but then I wake up--ZING!--at about 2:30am and can't get back to sleep. This happens at least three times a week, which leads me to my next issue...
  • FATIGUE! Like utter exhaustion type fatigue. And not just physically, mentally as well.
  • IRRATIONAL ANGER AND FRUSTRATION! You know how sometimes people describe their tempers as having "a short fuse"? Well, I'd describe mine these days as having NO fuse. At all. And I don't even want to describe how this lovely issue manifests itself in my day-to-day because it ain't purty.
  • INSANELY DRY/ASHY SKIN AND HAIR LOSS! I don't think I need to really go into detail about this.
  • HIGHLY IRRITABLE DIGESTIVE SYSTEM! Again, no details about this one. You're welcome.
  • AND THE CRYING!! That's right: I'll just be sitting at my desk at work, and all of the sudden, I've got tears streaming down my face. Reason? You tell me and we'll both know.

Appealing, no?

If I hadn't already had all my girly parts yanked a couple of years ago, I would suspect I was beginning the fun process of going through The Change. But I've been there and done that. Twice. (Long story.) So I'm suspecting it's my meds that I'm on--the hormones, the antidepressant/anti-anxiety meds, and the high blood pressure meds. All I know is I don't feel like Karla May, and I haven't in a month of Sundays. In fact, I've felt like I've been teetering on the edge of some kind of major implosion for a while now. And it's not because I'm unhappy. I'm pretty damn happy, actually. Things are great at home and getting better at work (after a fairly rough year). So what the HELL is up, people?! Anyone have any theories?

5 comments:

Marti said...

I vote thyroid...so so sorry!

SUS said...

I hope you find your answer. I'm voting thyroid as well. I can answer some questions for you if you have any...

Karla May said...

It's not my thyroid. As that is always the first "go to" test when a woman comes in complaining of feeling insane, that's already been ruled out.

I've been referred to a therapist who may (or may not) adjust my meds. For the time being, I've just got to maintain and try to hang on to what little bit of relative sanity I have remaining. However, if you see someone dangling off a ledge of one of these downtown highrises, there's a pretty good chance that it could be me...

Mandy said...

I immediately thought thyroid, too. The problem with most thyroid tests doctors do is that they don't run a full thyroid panel. Also, there is some question as to whether the "normal" levels are really normal at all, and many borderline cases aren't detected, although the symptoms are there. With the symptoms you have, I would go to someone who will do a comprehensive thyroid panel that checks free T3 and free T4, not just TSH. Here's a site that explains it somewhat, although obviously they are trying to sell something: http://www.womentowomen.com/hypothyroidism/testing.aspx

Sorry you are feeling so rotten.

Anonymous said...

I had borderline thyroid test results for years and my doctor never told me about it (always said it was normal) then I went to a different doctor, got all the tests run, started on synthroid and I feel sooo f'in normal again (I didn't even realize how abnormal I was feeling). I also broke up with my doctor when I found out I could have been better years ago!